Because He first love us

                                                                                    

This is not a coincidence, 

Out of the multitude of people, You found me.   

At the best of time,

At the worst of time, You stand by me.

Come blessings,

Come fortunes, You smile at me.

Come disasters,

Come ill events, Your hands support me.

Your presence light up my life,

Like never before.

Though doubt and persecution arises,

My soul shall be yours alone.

At end times,

Nothing matter except You,

Whom I love because You first love me.

The unnerving disappointment

It seems like it is a norm to be disappointed with everyone else but God. Because God is in-charge.

When storms come hurling its fist at us, we often question ourselves, question God, like Job, we doubt, we fall into desperation and cry out for Him. Lo and behold! What do we get? Silence. It can be just so quiet sometimes. The air, still and silent. We heard nothing, we felt nothing, we sense nothing. Emptiness. The soul dry as a desert under the scorching sun.

Oh, some may say, 'Just trust Him' and then they quote a verse. As if they would understand.
Maybe, some may comfort with a hug. No hugs could take away the problems we face.
Perhaps, some will encourage us with their testimonies. But the situations are different, people are different.
Hah! A handful might try to provide solutions and advice. But if everything could be solve by humans, what do we need God for?

There will be times like this in our Christian walk. Ups and downs, like the waves of the sea. Is God playing us? Fooling with us? It certainly feels like it at some point of the circumstances (whatever situations it may be). What answer do we have when we demand for God's attention and yet receive nothing from heaven? We can speculate all we want and the answer we may never get nor fully comprehend.* (For His thoughts are higher than ours). We may cry till no more tears are left in our hollow spirit.

If only life is so simple with black and white answers.

When one is full of doubt, nothing can remove those doubts except the touch of God. The encounter with Him personally is the only solution for an atheist, for a doubter, for a disappointed son, for a hurting soul, for a depress youth, for nothing-to-live for men and women.

Only the experience with God can bring a sense of peace to calm the storms. Wait upon Him.

-Inspired by Yancey's Disappointment with God-