Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Wait


-By Russell Kelfer-

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taunt,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and please you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, you dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still... Wait."










Saturday, July 23, 2011

My shelter, My strength













Your love is overwhelming, it pulls me through the wilderness.
Your faithfulness amazes me, it kept me strong.

Though I fell, fall, and will fail you time and time again,
your mercy and grace pick me up.

You endure my complaints,
Your sustaining love and trust in me kept me running for you.

When I reflect about you,
I realized one thing -
Without you, where would I be?
Without you, life is nothing.

Thank You,
for staying with me, being there for me.
Thank You,
My shelter,
My strength.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I choose you


The pain in my heart, no one can understand.

The worries and burdens.

No one can fathom.

Carried around by my tired soul, weigh down my aching heart, endless drops of tears.


It is easy to say that I don’t care.

It is easy to say, whatever.

But my heart is bound by this ‘limb’.


If only, if only the solution comes quickly.

‘If only’ are words that is plain easy to say than to believe.


Feel like giving up.

Feel like quitting the race.

Feel like ‘what the heck’.


But,

life is not to be controlled by our emotion, nor logical senses nor common sense.

It is controlled by our choices.


Therefore, I choose to remain standing strong.

I choose, today, to be faithful even when I am surrounded by chaos.

I choose, to stay strong in You.


I choose. You.

Thank You for Your strength in me.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Pieces of heart


My heart was whole,
till I met you.
You've torn it apart,
again and again.

When I contacted you,
it is not because,
I am desperate,
not because,
I like bugging you,
not because,
I like clinging to you 24/7,
not because,
I am a fool.

It is simply because,
I miss you,
is because,
I need to hear from you,
is because,
I am curious of what you are doing.

But,
you have given me false hope,
killing my heart,
breaking it to pieces,
when I found out the truth.

If only you can see through my heart,
and calculate those times you belong there,
experience those time I lost thinking of you.

It shall all stop from here henceforth.
Your treatments left a scar on my heart.
Your responses awaken me like a slap on the face.
I have enough of your empty talks,
endless so-called 'friendship'.

Sometimes I fear that this broken heart of mine cannot be healed,
because of you,
who has dominated it,
scared it,
and hurt it...

But,
Don't worry.
One day,
these pieces of heart that is still left will be healed.
Life will move on,
it has already move on.
Because,
I am letting you go...

Goodbye.
(Dedicated to a friend in pain)

Saturday, July 9, 2011